goal = size zero

so along with a weight goal i've decided to set a goal of being a size zero at hollister and abercrombie and american eagle. which they slightly vary, but if my waist is 24.5 to 25 inches i should fit into size 0 at all 3 places!   right now i am 27.25" at the waist.   so hopefully once i reach my GW of 110 lbs my waist will have shrunk as well!!

*size zero model*

need input...

so this is pretty bad... but i am thinking about a diet that consists of wine and chewing gum.... don't laugh... even though i kinda am... but i am being serious.

i work 3 nights a week, the other 4 days i am off... obviously on work night i can't drink, i'll eat salad.  but the other 4 days...

i could drink a bottle of yellow tail moscato a day, and it would only be 483 calories.  and then chew gum so i don't smell like a wino.    maybe a bad idea, but at least i'd be happy and not hungry... what do you guys think?   i realize its not the healthiest of ideas, but i would only keep this up until i'm to my GW of 110 lbs.  

broke 120 again!

ahh, thank goodness back under 120... weighed in at 119.6 lbs today.   what a relief.  

i have found that since i've been back from the trip, it has been easier to stick to 500 cal or less.  i wouldve thought it would be harder, since i didn't really restrict much for the 13 days i was gone. i guess after 2 weeks of almost whatever, its easier for your body to go into restriction mode?  idk, but i'll take it. 

skinny jeans

today i weighed in at 120.2 lbs... almost back to pre-honeymoon weight!   also, i went shopping, first time in a while and i was sooo super excited to learn that I fit into a 1/2!  i bought a pair of dark blue jean skinny jeans and a pair of black skinny jeans... so happy about how they look and even more excited about how small they are!

so now its time for some skinny jeans thinspo, so i can realize i have much more work to do!

 

also on a side note, being in the normal weight range according to BMI, is total BS.   I no longer ever wish to be "normal."  i am aiming for underweight (bmi of 18.4 - 16)... but not severely underweight...   according to wiki, for my height (5'7"),  being underweight is between 117.5 lbs to 102 lbs.  thats a pretty big range really.     and i am a lil less than 3lbs from underweight!! 

just some random thinspo

just posting some random thinspo pictures today... i do this because i want to look good naked...

first pic post ever...

so i thought i'd post a pic of myself... for the first time ever....   so this is me at probably about 121ish?  it was on the honeymoon, so i wasn't weighing everyday, and this was towards the end of the 12 day trip.    I def look better than I have in a long long time.  but i still hate my stomach... my stomach is why my GW is now 110 lbs! yuck...

back to reality

so the wedding and honeymoon are over.  they were perfect btw!  the wedding was just beautiful. and the cruise around the mediterranean was awesome, we visited barcelona, spain; marseilles, france; florence, italy; pisa, italy; rome, italy; dubrovnik, croatia; venice, italy and palma spain!!!   

anywhos, now its back to my obsession with my weight! i was down to 118.4lb right before the wedding.  when we got back from the honeymoon i was back to 123.0lbs.  :-(   so  its back to a goal of less than 500 calories for sure until i'm under 118.4 again... but i'd really like to hit my GW 116!  and i know that i won't be happy until i'm at my UGW of 110.   on my wedding day, don't get me wrong, i looked beautiful in my dress, stunning.  but on the honeymoon in a swimsuit, my tummy is still just blah!  i just don't see how 2.5 lbs could change my tummy to where i'd like it.... so hopefully 8.5lbs will!

 *tummy thinspo*

my target is to reach my GW of 116 by 10/18... and my UGW of 110 by 12/1.  i totally think those are doable!  i am sure i'll revise them... i always do, hah!