fasting

so today I've read two very inspiring blogs! thanks @ sunshine child.

so i will be trying to fast with her for the following days:  today (Monday), Tuesday,  Thursday and Friday!

wish us luck!!!  

i am on the road to thinness and i can't wait until i arrive to the beach at the end of this road!

small improvement

Well I've made it to 136.6 lbs.  Thats a small improvement.  All I had yesterday was a Nonfat SF Vanilla Latte from McD's @ 90 cal for breakfast, and Healthy Choice Meal @ 210 cal for dinner.

Thanks @ a friend of ana.  I think you are probably right, I am going to try to stick with restricting for a while longer.

Oh how I would love to look down at a scale looking like that...

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good news is i'm down to 138.8 lbs.

bad news is i'm still a fat cow.  i have a wedding to go to on saturday, and i am a dress collector, i love dresses.  so i have like 30.  well i pull out my autumn dresses, and not a single one will zip up.  its only been a year since i've worn them.   this is horrible.  

i can't eat anymore.  i just can't.  i am going to have to do whatever it takes to not eat until i am down to 130 lbs or can zip up these dresses.  whichever comes first.  and if i do slip and eat something, i am going to have to resort to purging.  something i've never done.  but desperate times call for desperate measures. 

A Few Days Pass...

So Sunday was a horrible day.  It was my nieces 3rd birthday, and my @$$ of a brother in-law decided at the last minute that only his family was invited over, and uninvited my side (my sister) of the family to her birthday party.  How cruel. Grrr.   I was very upset and took it out on myself by binging.  Oops.  I can't even count how many calories I consumed.  And Monday was a total blur.  I have no idea what I ate then either.

But Tuesday was better.  My boyfriends birthday!  I didn't eat anything all day, and then at dinner with his family and our friends, we split a 1/2 order of loaded potato chips. And that's all we ate.  And then consumed mass quantities of alcohol. Needless to say, Weds was spent in bed!  Which worked out well for weight loss...after spending about an hour on the bathroom floor.  

Wednesday night came around and I had to work.  After drinking mass quantities of water to rehydrate, I felt pretty good.  And all I ate for a midnight dinner was a 180 calorie Healthy Choice Meal.

Deliciousness!

Anyway, I am now back on track, once again.  Weighing in at 139.5 lbs.  Woo hoo!

Already?!

So I weighed in this am at 139.8 lbs!  Only 3 days and I've reached my first mini goal!!  Yah!  So today I did pretty well, I slept in and went to our fall festival for breakfast/lunch.  I had a pork burger ～350 cal and since I reached my first mini goal so soon I rewarded myself with apple slices with a small amount of caramel drizzled ontop ～100 cal.  Then for dinner I took it easy and had carrots ～30 cal, and a strawberry banana yogurt ～60 cal.  I hope things keep going this well!

Feelin Better About This

So this am I weighed in at 141 lbs!  Yah, feeling awesome about this.   I know that pace won't stay, but it sure is a good way to start.  Food today wasn't a challenge either, I had a strawberry colada yogurt for breakfast ~60 cal, a piece of cheese & ham quiche with a fruit cup for lunch ~350 cal, and steamed broccoli & carrots for dinner ~75 cal.  Yah!

Horrific

so i stepped on the scale this am... and it was horrific.  144.2lbs?!!  I've never been this size.  yuck!  my stomach is so nasty looking.   but i am going to fix it.  so far today i haven't really ate much, just a rockstar pink for breakfast, which was only 10 cal!  and a small cheese quesadilla from salsaritas for lunch, (had to go out b/c i was with work ppl) with tomatoes and jalapenos, about 350 cal.  I think that's pretty awesome.  hoping to be satisified with a yogurt, 60 cal, for dinner. 

@Tiny Intentions,  thanks for being there buddy! it is pretty funny, that we left and returned about the same time, "a lil ironic, don't ya think?"   

so i plan on updating my stats page, and i've added a new page, ThinSexSpriation, check it.

Starting Again

Oh me! It has been almost 2 months... I've been soo bad.   I've gained quiet abit of weight, I've been neglecting my health.  Its horrible.  But tomorrow I'm starting again.  Do an official weigh in, in the am.  And see exactly what I'm working with and go from there.   Diet time!  Exercise time!  I have got to lose weight!  I'm going on a cruise for my birthday in January, and how awesome would it be to be thinner then?!  I need to be much more realistic with my goal sets and time frames this time though.  I think that in the beginning I will restrict hard core for the first week, and then come up with something more practical and doable.   I'm probably going to cry in the morning when I check my weight... but that's okay,  just more motivation, right?  I hope my past followers come back and continue to support me.  I haven't forgot about you all.   I really hope to form a much closer bond with some of you from here on out.  I think friendships and support is a huge key to success.   So @ TinyIntentions and @ JanePansy!  Please help me again!  Look forward to meeting new followers/supporters, and hope to join several more and become a follower/supporter of many more!     Here's to starting again!!!   Oh I can't "weight" to see whats in store!

^^How perfectly beautiful is that?!^^