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well things are going ok.  i made it the 2 days on the apple fast and lost 2 lbs, got down to 113 lbs... now i am teetering back and forth between 113 and 114... i really need to buckle down, but still just don't feel motivated.  i did really well today tho, i woke up with what seemed like the beginnings of a cold, so i took a sudafed (the real stuff)  and it fixed that problem, but it also took away my appetite.   i didn't plan on today being a fast day, but it ended up being one... i had 2 cups of coffee and 2 bottles of water and not once did i feel hungry or even think about food.  coincidence??  maybe i'll take one tomorrow too and see if i get the same effects.

i'm back.... i hope!

hey ladies... sorry i've fallen off the face of the earth for a lil bit.  i've been really unmotivated and a little down... no particular reason, i guess its just the winter time blues...  but i'm tired of laying around being lazy and mopey!  so I'm back.  and I am ready to catch up on your blogs and start posting and replying more.   also  i'm ready to get back to losing weight, instead of gaining!  so this morning i weighed 115 lbs...  after 118 a couple days ago, (not proud of that at all, probably my tipping point!)  

do you guys remember that I had my family in a weight loss competition?  well obviously, I lost b/c I gained some weight during it... but my husband won!  he lost 10.4 lbs!  and really he didn't need to lose weight, he is already a slim built man.  but his little abs are peeking out now and it is sooo super sexy!  anyways...  we made a deal with each other about losing 5 more pounds a piece, so that is a little motivating for sure too! ;-)   

anyways,  i am going to try an apple fast for the next two days.  I am hoping I do well and if possible maybe continue the apple fast longer... but my Goal is 2 days, and if I meet and exceed that, then woo hoo.  :-)   i've read where some people lose anywhere from 3 - 10 lbs in 2-3 days on this fast, so here goes nothing... hoping for 3-5 lb loss.... we'll see where it takes me!

wish me luck, and let me know if you wanna join the fun! :D

pic update

so here is a picture update.  this was taken at the very end of January while on my birthday cruise.  I was about 112 lbs at the time.  i have gained back a little bit, i am at 115 lbs... but i am starting a raw vegan diet cleanse on Wednesday for lent.  so i am giving up meat and processed foods basically.  hopefully i can make it the 40 days and hopefully i will finally get out of this rut of losing and gaining the same 3 lbs!

need help

i am in desperate need of some help... i can not stop eating... its horrible... i have been exercising at least, but i just wanna eat all the time and constantly cave to my cravings.  i need some tips, hints, suggestions to overcome this...  i am back to 115 lbs..  :-(   i feel like crying.