a lil pain is worth it

down to 120.2lbs today!!!  only 4.2lbs to my GW!!   then its on to my UGW.   i'm sooo excited.  i really hope tomorrow I see 119.something!  i don't think i've ever seen that number on the scale.   then i plan to stay in the one-teens forever! last night was rough, i got super nauseated and weak, it lasted for about 4 hours. it was one of the most horrible feelings ever.  good news is it got rid of my appetite and then paid off on the scale today, so in the long run a lil pain is worth it... i guess? and love love this thinspo pic,   oh to be that skinny...

game over...

so this weekend was horrible.  i binged big time on Saturday.  first, we went to breakfast with the to-be in-laws.  i did so so there, had an omelette with just tomatoes and green peppers.  and i thought ok, today isn't going to be sooo bad.   then  i skipped lunch, but did drink some moscato, as we were sailing.  still not horrible.  but then when we got to our couples shower, it was game over.  pizza, breadsticks, tomatoes with mozzarella, sangria, cake balls.... the list goes on.   so i just stopped counting and had fun with all my friends.  the scale sucked in the morning.   so much that i'm not even going to mention it...   so i didn't really eat anything all day sunday and unfortunately stooped to taking a couple laxies again.   but it paid off... weigh-in just now 120.8lbs!   tonight is a 200 cal day, lets hope i can make it!  0.8 lbs to lose by Weds!  that's going to be a little hard, but I'm determined.

thanks

today's weigh in = 121.2lbs!!    only 5.2 lbs to go until i'm at my GW!   i am sooo lucky to have so much support, thanks to all my followers.  there is no way i would be doing this well without each of you.   it's so easy to get discouraged.... but you all remind me to stay strong.   my next mini goal is 120.  i am hoping to to reach this by august 1st!  thats about a week away, so totally doable.  if i can do it, you can do it!!!!

nothing

no weight loss today... still 121.8lbs.   i'm going to blame it on bloating and being a girl!   hopefully the weight stall only last 1 day.   fingers crossed for a better tomorrow.  and onward to tonight with ABC day 13 with 400 cal.   i've got it planned to eat a LC margherita pizza (310cal), salad with 1 tbsp ranch (30cal) and not sure if i'll do anything else with the other 60cals.   wish me luck.  hoping for a more positive outcome tomorrow.  isn't it horrible how that damn scale sets your mood for the day?!  i'm going to be mopey now.

just keep going...

today's weigh in was 121.8 lbs.... i just need to keep going.  i've been sticking with the ABC diet pretty well.   I'm on day 12 today, 250 cal.   should be a breeze, after the 150 cal yesterday.  my key to making it through the low cal days is lots of salad, i put fat free ranch dressing on it, at 1 tbsp its only 15cal, and sugar free jello.

39 days to go....   time will tell if all this has been worth it.   5.8lbs to go!

happy days

so this morning i reweighed myself twice, b/c i was shocked... i lost a whole pound in one day! so now i'm down to 122 lbs!    i really needed that, i was starting to get discouraged with only 0.2lb/day!    i am sure it'll prob go back to that rate again now, but o well!  also went to try on my wedding dress today, and it was loose!  what a relief.   that goodness i'm not really a size 10 anymore!   so it will have to be altered... but that's totally ok with me.  and it looked soo amazing, i am just more in love with it now.   40 more days!  6 lbs to get to my goal weight!  (I think my UGW may actually for the first time ever be a possibility!!)

new lowest weight!!!

well.... weighed in this morning at 123 lbs even!   This is my lowest weight!!!  now just to keep it up.   progress has slowed way down.   like 0.2lbs a day or none at all,  a little depressing since I'm not eating hardly at all.   we have a couples wedding shower on saturday, my goal is to be 121 - 120 lbs by then.   that will be super hard, but i am determined.   i can totally tell a difference in my body from this time last month.  i can start to see a thigh gap!  which is exciting.... but wait here's the bad news.... my belly is still all marshmallowy.  :(  whats up with that?   i have stick legs and arms now, and still a marshmallowy, gooey belly.   i mean don't get me wrong, its a little smaller, my pants that were tight before and starting to become loose, but geez,  when will this flab turn to FAB?!  grrrrrrrrrrr.    i am beginning to be doubtful that my belly will ever be flat and beautiful...  esp within 41 more days.  i've thought about eating somewhat normal for a few days to see if maintain, and then maybe start restricting again to restart bigger losses, but i am afraid that since i've come so far i don't wanna regain and screw it up... what's a girl to do??  oh, what to do?

surprise!

today's weigh in = 123.6lbs!  yah!   i was totally surprised... considering i totally binged yesterday, almost 1000 calories!  and it was a 200 cal day.... eek!    so i took some laxi's to ward of evil spirits and it worked!  thank goodness.   i just hope todays weight wasnt a fluke!   guess we will see at tomorrows weigh in.   thanks everyone for being supportive during this time.   this is the first time in a long long time that i actually feel like i can reach my goal.

depressingly small results

today... weigh in... 124.0 lbs....

the past 3 days its been 124.6, 124.4, 124.2 then 124....  0.2lbs a day?!  thats it?  blah!  for feeling hungry all the time, i sure would like to see larger weight loss numbers on a daily basis. grrrrrr

frustrated with depressingly small results.

so maybe someday...

 

*this is not me... just some real girl thinspo*

so i still have 4 more lbs to lose before i reach my next MG.... and 8 lbs til my GW... eek... seems soo far away.  at this rate it'll take 20 days to reach 120, and 40 days to reach 116... and the wedding is in 45 days...  that is cutting close!

a kicker

so today was day 5, 100 cal.   eek!  what a kicker, only 100 calories.  I had my doubts. but i made it... I MADE IT!

Breakfast

     Sugar Free Jello Cup - 10cal

     Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi - 0cal

Lunch

     Classic Garden Salad - 15cal

     Sugar Free Jello Cup - 10cal

Dinner

     Fat Free Chicken Broth - 5cal

Snack

     Fudgesicle Pop -40cal

TOTAL = 80cal!

a pic of my new best friend.... haha!!

woo hoo..... please let my scale be extra friendly tomorrow... b/c this was a kicker of a day.  i need this reward....

that'll do

not a big change on the scale... just 124.4lb,  loss of .2lbs, but that'll do.   at least its not a GAIN!   so today was my 400 calorie day....   kept it under 300!  which is good, because tomorrow is a 100 calorie day, and i always seem to have a hard time with that, so i won't feel as bad if I go a little over, since I had 100 left over calories today.

if you follow me on MFP, my code for my food diary is "thinspo"   i didn't want to make it public public because some ppl are there are real life buddies and they would think i am crazy, if they saw just how low my intake is.  good news is MFP says i'll be 109.3lbs in 5 weeks if I keep up at this intake. :D

i really admire this thinspo pic.   i think this is about as thin as you can be without looking sick.   perfection!

my fitness pal buddies

started the ABC diet again....  anyone out there use my fitness pal?  if so comment your screen name and lets become friends!

next MG!

i met my next MG!  #7 to be exact.... weigh in this morning at 124.6lbs.   :)  how awesome is that?

 yesterday I decided to restart the ABC diet with my txt buddy.  it made sense, since my wedding was exactly 50 days away yesterday.  and day 1 went pretty well.  

500 cal or less

baja fish tacos - 250 cal

1 michelob ultra - 95 cal

sm piece of bread & 3 bangbang shrimp = approx? 150 cal

 total = 495 cal.... so so very close, but i did it. and it reflected greatly on the scale this morning!

49 more days to go....   i can def see hitting my GW of 116 lbs by the end, and possibly even my UGW.  yah!

I'm pretty sure if you follow myblog then you already know what the ABC diet is.... but if not, and just to help me remind me of my daily goals, here it is!

126!!!!

126!   woo hoo.  headed out to eat tonight for my best friends bday.  we are going to bonefish grill.  i hope that i can behave!  my plan is to have the baja fish tacos just 250 calories.   and maybe a couple michelob ultras.... :D   i am sooo happpy.   check out this thinspo i found today, i hope i look like this when i hit 119!!!

i love my scale.... ( today that is )

so today's weigh in ...  126.6lbs!!   woo hoo.   so today i love my scale.    most of the time i hate my scale and want to throw it threw the wall, but if i keep seeing smaller numbers, i may marry my scale instead of my fiance.  LoL.   j/k of course! :D     but seriously....  i hope i can keep up this weekend... so hard to be good on the weekends, sooo hard.    

thanks for all the encouragement girls!  

some beautiful thinspo...

progress

so i am getting there! . . .  now at 127.2lbs.    just 2.2lbs until i'm 125...  and only 3.8lbs and i'll be at my lowest weight  since high school!  :D   i am soooo close....  i can keep this up... i can do this.    i have 53 more days to lose a total of 11.2lbs.....  considering it took me 189 days to lose 13.4lb, i am not sure if i'll make it by my wedding day, but i know i will make it by the end the year! :D

its been over 3 months...

omg... i can't believe i haven't posted in over 3 months!!!   eeek!   I am soooo sorry to any of my followers that I have disappointed.    but it has been super busy... wedding planning,  funerals, work.....  just life i guess.   anywho.... good news is that i had an appt with my dr, and we decided to d/c all my prescriptions.  this was about a month ago.... so the only prescription i take now is BC.    this has def seemed to help my mood and my weight loss efforts.   i am now down to *drum roll please*  128.6 lbs, as of this mornings weigh in!!   that's my lowest weight of the year and lowest weight is a long time!   woo hoo.   i hope things continue this well.   my goal is to be between 115 and 120 lbs for my wedding, which is in 61 days!   if that is not the ultimate motivator... idk what would be!

here is a pic of my wedding dress... its suppose to be here the middle of the month.   this was also another motivator... when i went to try on dresses and be sized, i had to order this in a size 10!! wtf?!   the lady was like "it's ok, these dresses run small, most everyone has to order 2 sizes up from their normal."  still did not make me feel any better about the situation.   i am hoping to have to have the dress altered once it comes in, i have already lost 5 lbs since she measured me last... so i do feel better about that part...