depressingly small results

today... weigh in... 124.0 lbs....

the past 3 days its been 124.6, 124.4, 124.2 then 124....  0.2lbs a day?!  thats it?  blah!  for feeling hungry all the time, i sure would like to see larger weight loss numbers on a daily basis. grrrrrr

frustrated with depressingly small results.

so maybe someday...

 

*this is not me... just some real girl thinspo*

so i still have 4 more lbs to lose before i reach my next MG.... and 8 lbs til my GW... eek... seems soo far away.  at this rate it'll take 20 days to reach 120, and 40 days to reach 116... and the wedding is in 45 days...  that is cutting close!

a kicker

so today was day 5, 100 cal.   eek!  what a kicker, only 100 calories.  I had my doubts. but i made it... I MADE IT!

Breakfast

     Sugar Free Jello Cup - 10cal

     Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi - 0cal

Lunch

     Classic Garden Salad - 15cal

     Sugar Free Jello Cup - 10cal

Dinner

     Fat Free Chicken Broth - 5cal

Snack

     Fudgesicle Pop -40cal

TOTAL = 80cal!

a pic of my new best friend.... haha!!

woo hoo..... please let my scale be extra friendly tomorrow... b/c this was a kicker of a day.  i need this reward....

that'll do

not a big change on the scale... just 124.4lb,  loss of .2lbs, but that'll do.   at least its not a GAIN!   so today was my 400 calorie day....   kept it under 300!  which is good, because tomorrow is a 100 calorie day, and i always seem to have a hard time with that, so i won't feel as bad if I go a little over, since I had 100 left over calories today.

if you follow me on MFP, my code for my food diary is "thinspo"   i didn't want to make it public public because some ppl are there are real life buddies and they would think i am crazy, if they saw just how low my intake is.  good news is MFP says i'll be 109.3lbs in 5 weeks if I keep up at this intake. :D

i really admire this thinspo pic.   i think this is about as thin as you can be without looking sick.   perfection!

my fitness pal buddies

started the ABC diet again....  anyone out there use my fitness pal?  if so comment your screen name and lets become friends!

next MG!

i met my next MG!  #7 to be exact.... weigh in this morning at 124.6lbs.   :)  how awesome is that?

 yesterday I decided to restart the ABC diet with my txt buddy.  it made sense, since my wedding was exactly 50 days away yesterday.  and day 1 went pretty well.  

500 cal or less

baja fish tacos - 250 cal

1 michelob ultra - 95 cal

sm piece of bread & 3 bangbang shrimp = approx? 150 cal

 total = 495 cal.... so so very close, but i did it. and it reflected greatly on the scale this morning!

49 more days to go....   i can def see hitting my GW of 116 lbs by the end, and possibly even my UGW.  yah!

I'm pretty sure if you follow myblog then you already know what the ABC diet is.... but if not, and just to help me remind me of my daily goals, here it is!

126!!!!

126!   woo hoo.  headed out to eat tonight for my best friends bday.  we are going to bonefish grill.  i hope that i can behave!  my plan is to have the baja fish tacos just 250 calories.   and maybe a couple michelob ultras.... :D   i am sooo happpy.   check out this thinspo i found today, i hope i look like this when i hit 119!!!

i love my scale.... ( today that is )

so today's weigh in ...  126.6lbs!!   woo hoo.   so today i love my scale.    most of the time i hate my scale and want to throw it threw the wall, but if i keep seeing smaller numbers, i may marry my scale instead of my fiance.  LoL.   j/k of course! :D     but seriously....  i hope i can keep up this weekend... so hard to be good on the weekends, sooo hard.    

thanks for all the encouragement girls!  

some beautiful thinspo...

progress

so i am getting there! . . .  now at 127.2lbs.    just 2.2lbs until i'm 125...  and only 3.8lbs and i'll be at my lowest weight  since high school!  :D   i am soooo close....  i can keep this up... i can do this.    i have 53 more days to lose a total of 11.2lbs.....  considering it took me 189 days to lose 13.4lb, i am not sure if i'll make it by my wedding day, but i know i will make it by the end the year! :D

its been over 3 months...

omg... i can't believe i haven't posted in over 3 months!!!   eeek!   I am soooo sorry to any of my followers that I have disappointed.    but it has been super busy... wedding planning,  funerals, work.....  just life i guess.   anywho.... good news is that i had an appt with my dr, and we decided to d/c all my prescriptions.  this was about a month ago.... so the only prescription i take now is BC.    this has def seemed to help my mood and my weight loss efforts.   i am now down to *drum roll please*  128.6 lbs, as of this mornings weigh in!!   that's my lowest weight of the year and lowest weight is a long time!   woo hoo.   i hope things continue this well.   my goal is to be between 115 and 120 lbs for my wedding, which is in 61 days!   if that is not the ultimate motivator... idk what would be!

here is a pic of my wedding dress... its suppose to be here the middle of the month.   this was also another motivator... when i went to try on dresses and be sized, i had to order this in a size 10!! wtf?!   the lady was like "it's ok, these dresses run small, most everyone has to order 2 sizes up from their normal."  still did not make me feel any better about the situation.   i am hoping to have to have the dress altered once it comes in, i have already lost 5 lbs since she measured me last... so i do feel better about that part...

 

determination

now back down to 131.8 lbs this morning.... thank goodness....  i am determined to make it below 130 in the next couple of days.... and stay there this time. i really mean it.   no more slipping up.  no more being a fatso.  on sunday i made a goal to lose 10 lbs in 3 weeks.  ive lost 3.2lbs so far.  thats 1/3 of the way there, and one day shy of 1 week.  i feel like i can do this.  just need to stay motivated and determined.